So I don't think anyone actually noticed, but I took down all of my posts that had to do with relationships and my ex...that wasn't a website glitch. I actually went in and took them down, because - guess what? Surprise! I got back with my ex! Oh, happy days. (PS. They are back up now)
It was 8 months apart, that's a long time you know? I really thought by then I'd be over it. Especially after all the traveling and work I was doing on myself. I still kept thinking of him, missing him, what if I did certain things better? We bump into each other at a workout class, and we start talking. He let me know kind of all the things he has been working on and realized - even took responsibility for some things! And I did the same. From there basically, we were like magnets. That is the type of 'connection' we had, if you have ever had this it's great, it feels amazing but I think it comes at a price.
We even became boyfriends again. Things were good. Things were different. We were communicating better, fighting less, enjoying each other's company. That quickly changed, by only the 4th month into it again, the fighting and pettiness was back. Many of the issues we originally had were back and it was not fun.
I'm not going to go into all the details but what I learned basically at the end of the day, the person we choose to be with has to love you for you. We are all a WIP (work in progress) and you need that partner to be with you while you learn and vice versa while they learn. Don't change yourself, I can look back and see many times I did things I didn't want to and was formed into a mold that suited my partner better than me. I am sloppy - sorry the bathroom sink is always wet! And yes - I want to sleep in, is that a big deal?!
It is hard to see and think clearly when you are in it, so stay strong, and talk to friends and family, I think it is extremely important. The Love? Narcism? Control? Is Blinding. I played a part in it too - so that is work I am doing so I don't attract those qualities again. I know I gave it my all this time, I changed things that I wanted to and for that I am proud. I do not regret getting back with him, luckily it was a short time and this time around it's been 2 months broken up - and I barely think about him.
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